[when Russel gets these messages, he is at first REALLY IRRITATED because he did not want to be reminded about almost dying. he would definitely prefer to just never think about that ever again and move on with his life like everything is fine. see, every time he comes back to it, he starts to freak out about it, and worry about the future and what if it happens again and what if next time he isn't so lucky, and he would really rather just not. it's so much easier to pretend it never happened and that it isn't a problem and that it doesn't scare him.]
[but he shoves all that aside, because ignoring it is easier than being angry about being reminded about it. and then he is free to feel vindicated that Emil has admitted to what an awful person he is and apologized for it]
yeah, you HAVE been a completely shitty person to me and honestly i'm not sure i SHOULD forgive you because you'll probably just go right back to being a dick because you know you can just apologize later and be forgiven!
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Date: 2014-03-22 12:47 am (UTC)[but he shoves all that aside, because ignoring it is easier than being angry about being reminded about it. and then he is free to feel vindicated that Emil has admitted to what an awful person he is and apologized for it]
yeah, you HAVE been a completely shitty person to me and honestly i'm not sure i SHOULD forgive you because you'll probably just go right back to being a dick because you know you can just apologize later and be forgiven!